well, for a few more days anyway.
hello! it’s me! I still exist! if only able to check Tumblr occasionally. at this point, I doubt that anyone reads this blog anymore — especially if my Google Analytics whatsit is any indication — but I’ll valiantly put finger to keyboard anyway. because I might as well. it’s practically the end of the day here at the fort and I’m needing something to do.
it occurred to me this weekend that the title of this blog still, very much, holds true. I’m extremely thankful for my contractor position — and if anyone I currently work with has come upon this page, please know this times x 1 babillion — but, through no fault of anyone, I don’t really know what the future holds. a friend recently posted on Facebook that there’s a great room available for rent in her house in the Valley … price + location + knowing that at least 1 of the current 2 roommates is awesome = perfect possible abode … but I can’t take advantage because I don’t know what’s gonna happen in the next few months. (and I’m sure someone will snap up that room post haste.)
on top of that, because I’m working full-time AND in a show right now, I feel like I have zero time “for myself.” I hate putting it that way, but it’s true. a big chunk of that time would be spent working out like a fiend … like I was able to last summer. my body must be having sense memory of 12 months ago, because I actually WANT to work out. weird, right?! but my whole friggin’ life is in the way. and before you tell me to exercise in the morning before work or when I get home from rehearsal, know that I legit canNOT function on less than 6 hours of sleep a night — which renders either of those options virtually impossible. I know. IT SUCKS. I’m actually jealous of my younger friendfolk who can do the late-night gym trips … but they also (usually) don’t have to leave for work at buttcrack o’clock in the morning. I’ve been eating pretty healthily to try and make up for the absence of exercise, but it’s so not cutting it. I seriously feel the fattest I’ve felt in well over a year, you guys. I hate it.
and let’s not even mention the fact that I have done nothing about voiceover stuff since I started this job and this show. I can’t even. I just. GAH.
again, this isn’t to say I’m not appreciative of the work I’m doing. I guess it’s just a never-ending hope to mix professional & personal and have time to do EVERYTHING I want to do. I mean, I think that’s probably everyone’s hope, right? honestly, I have a sneaking suspicion it can be done. I just can’t do it … yet.